Congratulations to Meghan on beginning this journey!
Always Unstable: A Memoir
My book, ‘Always Unstable: Bipolar and Hospitalization: A
Memoir’. You can probably tell a lot from the title. I have problems with
stability, I have Bipolar Disorder and, I’ve spent my fair share of time in
psychiatric hospitals. And it’s all true.
I’ve been hospitalized five times in the last 10 or 11 years.
Sometimes in the US and sometimes in Australia. Four of my hospital stays were
all within one ear. And I’ve been fortunate that every hospital that I’ve been
in has been great, or at least mostly great. These hospitalizations are what I
have based my book on. I go through them with as much detail as I can remember.
I read through piles and piles of old journals from hospital to piece together
those parts that I had forgotten about. And let me tell you, going though
hospital journals can be pretty interesting, like the time I wrote about
telling my psychiatrist that I wanted to have sex with him. My husband got
called in after that one.
I’ve never been to a hospital for the same thing twice. I’ve
been committed for a suicide attempt, a bipolar mixed episode, mania/ eating
disorder, electroconvulsive therapy and last but not least, a psychotic manic
episode. It’s always something. See, I like to keep things interesting. Not.
Throughout this book I take you on a journey through each of
my five hospital stays. I go over what happened to get me there, like the
suicide attempt, that was a very long time coming. I tell you what happened
while I was there, and let’s be honest, psychiatric hospitals can be pretty
interesting places to be. And lastly, I talk a little about what happened after
I left.
My story is truthful, brutally honest and maybe sometimes
hard to read. I know that often it was hard to write. I’ve been through a lot
and it’s just about all in there. There are things in there that I hadn’t ever
told anyone before. It’s easier to admit to wrong doings in writing than it is
in verbal conversation. My Mum was the first to read my book. I expected her to
be angry or even furious, but she wasn’t. She read all of the things that I’ve
done in my life until now and I guess just accepted the bad things that I’ve
done in part because of my illness. She said that she liked my book, I didn’t want
to pry for any more details. I’m 27, not too old to be scolded by a parent.
Words are powerful things and I hope that mine are in the
best way possible. I want to people to understand, I want people to relate, I
want someone to read this and feel less alone. I want someone to read this and
get help.
I am 27
years old I’ve been living with mental illness for a very long time, most of my
life. I have Bipolar I Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, and Anxiety
Disorder. But that’s not all I am. I am also a writer, a painter, a knitter, and
an avid walker. I love the winter time; I love the rain. I also have a
constantly growing collection of stuffed animals. I love
tattoos.
Website: www.alwaysunstable.com
Twitter:
@alwaysunstable
Facebook: @meghanshultzauthor
Book US version: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B01H9XAXS4
Facebook: @meghanshultzauthor
Book US version: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B01H9XAXS4
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